I'm wrong so very often. But the older I get, the less I dwell on my mistakes.
Tonight I had dinner and drinks with a friend, someone that I lost touch with for a little while. Our lives were not in the right phase to really interact with one another, and so we didn't talk for a while.
She's a pretty spiritual person - always driving for answers, looking beyond to really figure out "what's going on??!!"
During our first margarita (Grand Gold, TYVM) I asked her what Faith looked like to her. Her immediate reply was "Oh, it's corny!" and I waved my hand in reply. Shortly thereafter she said - "it is the KNOWING. The secure idea that some greater power out there realllllly knowwwwws me."
Fair enough.
But then I pondered a moment; "Then why are we only truly omnipotent for ourselves? 'We' are the only ones that know our thoughts and feelings at any given time... and yet, we have such little faith in ourselves."
It was pretty quiet at our dinner table until the second round of margaritas arrived.
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4 comments:
Ahhh, this is a good topic.
Faith is a concept that has eluded me and I've struggled with since I can remember. At one point, I've even wished and hoped and begged to just let me believe in SOMETHING the way I've seen others do so that I may find the comfort so many seem to find in "GOD" or church or what have you. There were days where I thought it would be so much more simple if I could just follow blindly to what I'd been taught as a child. To take solace in something external that would protect me, know me, love me and forgive me. I thought, how wonderful would it be to just wash away all my "sins" and begin anew? If that's possible, sign me up for that!
For me the struggle came from what my heart felt and nurtured spiritually and what my logical mind simply could not subscribe to. I just could never escape the concept mentally that we are accountable, no matter what. That we as humans, are evolving and our very existence is not futile by any means, but that we are all working together toward this greater energy force. Certainly, one primary divine entity could not be responsible for the outcomes of our culture? For the evolution of our earth and her beauty and if that was the case, how could "He" or "She" EVER defile Mother Earth in such a tortuous manner, simply for the convenience of man?
I just couldn't figure it out. A lot of things, I couldn't understand and simply didn't make sense to me.
In time, I did find a center within myself that one could call a form of faith. I explored numerous world religions, concepts and idea's in detail and found that fundamentally, truths are written on our hearts and that is definitely something to believe in, for me anyway. I know it's something I'll be practicing and learning for the rest of this life because I don't see how any other way is possible except to continue to grow as a spiritual being. I also learned that ultimately, I am responsible for a securing myself and my own happiness. My choices, good or bad will be reacted to by universal law, whether I like it or not. I can rectify some actions, simply by stopping negative behaviors and surrounding myself with positivist. But I have to make that happen, if I just let it sit out there karma will eventually teach me a lesson. This doesn't make any of us any more or less important than one another, yet we are all divine within who we are and what we do. What we choose to do with that is up to us.
I see faith as an incredible beauty, mostly it's something I have to find in myself first before I can share it with something external and truly believe in it. I also believe that by giving others the freedom to practice their own forms of faith and continue to develop into the beings that they are meant to be, it is only adding to a potential abundance of positivity and progress in our world.
P: I'm sorry if there was an uncomfortable silence between margarita's, but you wouldn't be you if you hadn't been forthcoming with your thoughts on the matter. I am proud of you for doing so.
Dood. Your comment was longer than my post. LOL :)
I see a lot of people that are expecting some sort of 'black and white' effect where faith is concerned. If there is no blind acceptance then they are truly unhappy and searching.
At some point in my life I just realized that I didn't want to waste my life wondering about some unseen, theoretical "control" figure. Faith isn't about control at all. I can see where people would have control issues on the topic of Destiny, though. This was more, "we should always have faith in ourselves, no matter what religion we subscribe to" in nature. :)
Faith is one of those words that has evolved into something intentionally ambiguous. The only thing I can firmly say I know about faith, is that I rarely understand what someone means when they use the word.
Defining faith is kind of like defining art. They clearly mean different thins to different people.
Well said trust!
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